here-be-vultures:

i beat myself up over not being good enough for my gods all the time, that im an awful person and that i dont see why they would spend time with me at all, and that they could just go and find someone better.

but thats not the point. theyre not going around looking for flawless beings that never do anything wrong. they want to see me learn, and change, and grow. they want to be with me on my path and they want to help me overcome problems and be there for me when i need it. im not supposed to never make any mistakes, im supposed to be a flawed human being.

theyre not here because they expect me to be perfect, theyre here because they want to be with me on my path.

we walk this path together, and theyre allowed to see me trip and fall and get stuck. and they wont just leave me behind for that.