oh i am tired of the small, desperate, sad tony begging for steve to return
no no
give me tony stark who locks the damn phone away because he is determined to prove to steve, to prove to everybody, that for once, he can do this, that he will not fuck this up
give me tony stark devoting his time to make amends with the victims of avengers’ unfortunate world-saving adventures
give me tony stark building a state-of-the-art hospital in lagos
give me tony stark funding the UN mission to help the devastated communities around what used to be sokovia
give me tony stark helping peter parker pay his student loans and upgrading his shit ass computer
and then
give me steve rogers clutching that phone to his chest every time when he wakes up from nightmares
give me steve rogers typing in the number and never pressing call because he knows, he knows that he messed up, that he betrayed tony’s trust, convinced that he doesn’t deserve his forgiveness or howard’s shield
give me steve rogers asking natasha about tony whenever they meet
give me steve rogers staring at the news feed at 3am just in case something goes horribly wrong in new york
for once give me a guilt-ridden, ruined steve rogers and a tony stark with a purpose